I don't trust anyone enough with my emotions.

You will never accept my feelings.

Things about the FRIEND-ZONE, 1

From a friend of mine, who I am in the friend-zone with.

"The firend zone. That is a difficult realm. Every one is different. But the common thing is whenever friendzoned person tries to hint that there are feelings, female tends to change subject, or to pretend to be interested in what you are saying so that feelings aren't hurt, but still slowly change subject."

So, I'm just fucked. More to follow at a later date.

Meditation Rules

http://www.how-to-meditate.org

Notes on Breathing Meditation:

1.) Stop all distractions
2.) Find a quiet place
3.) sit with your back straight ##this is to prevent a "slack" mind
a.) your legs do not have to be crossed, just be relaxed with a straight back
4.) Partially close your eyes and focus on the end of your nose
5.) Focus on your natural breathing. follow it in your body through your nostrils.
a.) through the nostrils is a peaceful state of breathing, thus what we want. mouth breathing is an active breathing, we want to be peaceful.

At first, you may notice that you seem to be more distracted, and your mind becomes more clouded, but that is just because you are slowing down to realize how busy your mind is. remain focused and if you stray, or a thought comes in your mind, go back to your breathing as soon as possible. it takes time to practice.

Music Notebook

Just recently I purchased a little Moleskin musical notation notebook, and this thing is killer. Fits in my pocket, so when I'm strolling along, I can jot my ideas down instead of trying to remember them all the time and loosing the spur of the moment pzazz.

Bangin' eh?

My Ugly Mug

its me!

An old video of Germany

This is an old video I took in 2010 of me in Bamberg, Germany.

Man in the Moon Revision 3

Check this video out! It's a new version of an old song I was working on in 2011. I just don't have my guitar equipment yet.

Asking the Question, the Right way...

I really hate not knowing how to ask a question, especially when you're not quite sure what you're doing. Like tonight, I was working on a Ruby program, and I wanted to see if I could initiate an array function that acts as a block, but then would I be able to go back to that block after another array function. I'm not even sure if I'm saying it right on here, and it annoys the fuck out of me.

This also goes for a lot of other things, but right now, its pissing me off. I had some big philosophical thing planned, but I can't remember it anymore. Fuck.

Music, Guitars, and Composing....

I was reading through YouTube, and I found a cool little channel made by a man named Andrew Wasson. This guy brought a lot of examples down to a level where I could understand. If you need help with your guitar playing, here is his links to his pages. If you get on YouTube, and follow the links through videos, you can download jam tracks, and free handouts for his lessons.

http://creativeguitarstudio.blogspot.com/

http://www.andrewwasson.com/

http://www.youtube.com/user/guitarblogupdate

The actual lessons
http://www.youtube.com/user/creativeguitarstudio

https://soundcloud.com/creativeguitarstudio/

Shootings, Guns, and stuff

First political post. woot. Now, I'm not a super political nut, I don't know everything that is going up in the big government, just what I see, and hear on the news, internet, and from my own opinions. So of course, read at your own will, disclosure, and whatever.

It is a sad, horrific event that did happen, a shooting will children dying, and other people getting injured. I do send my condolences to the children's family and friends who were affected. I believe there was a moment of silence throughout the country, and that the president shed a tear for them. That's all well and dandy, but my problem is when people try to say, guns are the problem.

I won't say that gun don't kill people. Of course guns kill people, but a gun is a tool. Just like a wrench, a knife, or fishing pole. Whats the fundamental factor with all these tools, they're human operated. In the hands of a human, a wrench, can become a weapon, beating someone's face in, killing them. A gun, or weapon as they call it in the military, is a tool, a tool to hunt, and a tool to defend oneself. So, in my logic, a tool, that can be used as a weapon, should be illegalized, and removed from households, and made more difficult to purchase and get. That should stop the killings right? So, the mechanics, chefs, and fishermen will start complaining, just like they are now. Americans are complaining that they are being stripped of their right to bear arms.

I do not believe that we should be stripped of our right to bear arms, but arms dealers should run training programs before you can buy your gun, and also put through a Q&A test of intentions with the weapon. We should not just remove our right to own a gun, that would make the public less powerful, and thus, a series of things would happen, call it a theory. Different discussion. This would prevent a looney from buying a gun and taking it out that day to do whatever. In these classes, the arms dealer should teach about bullets, how they're constructed, and act. They should detail about how a weapon works, and all the safety concerns and practices available. A big thing that should be a requirement to purchase a weapon should be having a secure place to store it that has a combo and is child-proof. Most times when a thing is child-proof, its retard proof, therefore slowing down those people who wish to use the weapon to do inhumane things.

I am not familiar with most healthcare facilities, so I am not too keen on metal health services, but, these should be provided and referenced by these arms dealers. If a person you know is willing to buy a gun, you should have the guts to help a friend if you think they are not mentally stable. Just like the drunk driving posters, friends don't let friends drive drunk. Friends don't let friends buy guns when they need help.

I have also seen some statistics, whether they were real or made up, about other countries who have stripped the right to own guns. Usually bad things happen, and those with guns, come and save these people. I am not sure if those countries just made it harder to get guns, ie, the methods I discussed, or if they just did away with the guns. We don't have to tax the crap out of gun owners, or arms dealers, but just provide services to assure that your buyers and users are mentally stable, and have been trained in proper safety techniques.

Now to recap, I have said that most things that are tools, can be classified as weapons. Do we simply remove these from public possession? No, we have to take care and train people. Just like a car, we train a person to drive it, then take a test to own and operate that vehicle. So it should just be like a gun. That is my two cents (sense)

"And as always, have a nice day." - FPSRussia

Things I want to say, never come out, that that does, is not what's supposed to. And emotions are best conveyed through music.

Shitty Advice

Disclaimer: There will he exceptions to any rule, stereotype, or generalization. Your views and ideas may differ, but this is my blog. I don't care.

Ight, so, there will always be those people who give shifty advice and maybe it's just me, but I hate when people, especially females, who tell men to be nice, treat them like a queen, or what not. This, is a load of shift. If it were that easy, why don't good guys that do do the precious stated, get the girls they want? We know the answer, it's because you either will take advantage of him, or you want that thrill ride of a badass, keeping you on your edge, making you want to be in his life.

This kinda relates to a previous post about two faces, same concept. Meet a girl, you're hot going to be yourself. You're gonna lie in some form or fashion to make her want you. I try to live by no lie, so, I keep it real to myself. Now the only way I can get round this is by completely changing my life style. Change my cloths, my way of thinking and such.

Now, as shallow and barbaric as it seems, when you meet someone, and you want to date that person, there is always some sort of physical attraction. Unless you're one of those special people who are literally attracted to personality and such, whatever. When you look that person in the eye, or rather at them, you're attracted to them in some way, eyes, jaw line, hair, body curves, whatever.

And this concludes this rant, so happy reading "and as always, have a nice day." - FPSRussia.

Ps., I'm sure I'll have more rants about this later. Just in different forms.

Two-Face

Thought crossed my mind today, and of course its all just a point of view. Society is a two-faced sad existence because all my life, and probably yours, you've been told, be yourself, don't let anyone change you, nor change for anyone but yourself. Well, that's some shit, because if I were to roll up into a work place looking for either a job, or just to shift, and I wore what I wanted, then I'd be kicked out, and stuff, ie, band shirt or gamer shirt, carpenter jeans, and a scruffy beard with some converses. Nope, you gotta dress up, put your face on, and smile that fake smile to the rest of the world. Those first 20 seconds you meet someone, you gotta sucker them in, cause once you get them liking you, then they feel guilty for not helping you when you turn out to be some psychopathic retard.

Moral of the story, Life's unfair, smile through the shit, and make yourself happy, but you gotta play the game too.

Test blog post!