I have discovered my place, and moment of zen occurs when everything I have is in its place, looks neat, and the is not clutter.
I realized this when I was doing my homework and having a hard time studying. Then I went to put my cup away, and ended up doing all the dishes and putting my books up. Finished my homework near after 30min. Amazing eh?
2013-06-02
2013-04-24
MechWarrior Online
Howdy folks! I have joined a mechwarrior clan, and have been playing for about two weeks. I am absolutely in love with Battletech since I was 10. I had the Battletech Compendium from 1990. I read it a lot, and now that I am older, the rules finally make sense. If you are interested in looking at my clan, its the Aces Wild, http://www.the-aces.com/. You can also Google for the MechWarrior Online game to play. For now its in Beta, so hop on the banwagon.
2013-03-31
State ran and social media
They have programmed us to the point where we don't realize certain things, and focus on crap that isn't news. We have been geared for hard hitting exciting news, when there is plenty to see that is disturbing, but no one cares or wants to know. It is very sad and depressing. The most recent development would be the gay marriage debate, while secretly, without much media attention, and any that was, was squelched, the genetically modified crops that were promised not to be put into production. This is a perfect example of censorship. The definition of censorship has been muddled these days in my opinion. We do not see these things either because we cannot understand them, or we do not want to understand them. Then our leaders are using that to their advantage. We have to open our eyes.
Lullaby
Lullaby
Just lie down your head
Calm your mind and start to dream
You are safe in your bed
Nothing will bring you harm
You'll never leave my arms
-
-
Dream your dreams
Fly to the stars and through the sky
Catch a star and hold it tight
In your heart is my light
Don't dare to wake
Live your wildest dream
When the sun will rise
So will you
Bring me smiles but for now
For you're the light of my life
-
-
Dream your dreams
Fly to the stars and through the sky
Catch a star and hold it tight
In your heart is my light
Just lie down your head
Calm your mind and start to dream
You are safe in your bed
Nothing will bring you harm
You'll never leave my arms
-
-
Dream your dreams
Fly to the stars and through the sky
Catch a star and hold it tight
In your heart is my light
Don't dare to wake
Live your wildest dream
When the sun will rise
So will you
Bring me smiles but for now
For you're the light of my life
-
-
Dream your dreams
Fly to the stars and through the sky
Catch a star and hold it tight
In your heart is my light
Meeting that hopeful Prospect only to blow it.
So, I ran into this problem, what do I have in my life, that is worthy to talk about with another person that I randomly meet, say a girl for instance? I was in Half-Priced Books, and I bumped into a beautiful red head girl in the gardening section; I wanted to see if I could find anything on growing food. Well, we both giggled said we're sorry, and moved on. So later I run into her again in the fiction section and decided to talk bit. Well, I got a bit of something out of her as far as her book, but then I walked off, and came back like a retarded little boy talking about music, and then fantasy books, and then I left feeling embarrassed. Well, I came to the conclusion that I don't have much to talk about. "Hey, wanna hear me blab about musical theory? How about my Warhammer 40k collection, or my Halo collection, or my Star Wars collection, or my Battletech collection? I also have a bunch of books about Halo, or Warhammer, or of the such. Interested?" Not so much. I don't have much to share with a person right off the bat. I am also a horrible conversationalist when it comes to breaking the ice outside of my realm. I should make up cue cards of topic starters, breakers, and avoiders all together for each conversation. Something that I could review before each encounter, and also take notes on. Maybe some ideas of funny things to make them laugh, I don't know.
All I do know, is I technically hate people. Especially stupid people, and ignorant people. Unless there is something we click about, or we're forced to spend time together, you're probably not going to get to know me.
All I do know, is I technically hate people. Especially stupid people, and ignorant people. Unless there is something we click about, or we're forced to spend time together, you're probably not going to get to know me.
2013-02-22
2013-02-15
Straight Razor Shaving
I recently started shaving with a straight blade razor, and I'll say, you get what you pay for, but it lasts for a long time if you take care of it. More updated information to come, and probably some pictures.
Before I shave, I strop the blade on my leather strop. Using the canvas side first, then on the leather side. This sharpens the blade.
Here are the steps that i use to shave with.
1.) Take a hot shower, or use a hot wash cloth laid across your face
A.) You can either make a hot towel using a steamer
B.) Soak wash cloth in cold water, then microwave the towel for 30 seconds. Renuke as necessary.
2.) Prepare shaving cream/soap lather
A.) Use a bowl to work lather and make it big and froathie.
B.) Use the brush to apply lather to your face
C.) A good idea is to lather just sections you want to shave
3.) Apply facial oil to all of neck and face
A.) Make sure you can create an oily layer on your face
4.) Thoroughly apply lather with brush
5.) Use the same hand as the side of your face to shave.
6.) Use your opposite hand to pull the skin tight
7.) Shave with the grain of your hair
8.) Reapply lather
9.) Shave against the grain
10.) Reapply lather
11.) Shave with the grain
12.) Wash off your face
13.) Apply Alum block to cuts and all over face with cold water
14.) Apply after shave lotion or cream
Before I shave, I strop the blade on my leather strop. Using the canvas side first, then on the leather side. This sharpens the blade.
Here are the steps that i use to shave with.
1.) Take a hot shower, or use a hot wash cloth laid across your face
A.) You can either make a hot towel using a steamer
B.) Soak wash cloth in cold water, then microwave the towel for 30 seconds. Renuke as necessary.
2.) Prepare shaving cream/soap lather
A.) Use a bowl to work lather and make it big and froathie.
B.) Use the brush to apply lather to your face
C.) A good idea is to lather just sections you want to shave
3.) Apply facial oil to all of neck and face
A.) Make sure you can create an oily layer on your face
4.) Thoroughly apply lather with brush
5.) Use the same hand as the side of your face to shave.
6.) Use your opposite hand to pull the skin tight
7.) Shave with the grain of your hair
8.) Reapply lather
9.) Shave against the grain
10.) Reapply lather
11.) Shave with the grain
12.) Wash off your face
13.) Apply Alum block to cuts and all over face with cold water
14.) Apply after shave lotion or cream
2013-02-08
2013-02-05
Personal Responsibility, Accountability, and Discipline
***DISCLAIMER***
This is to disuade those who would be easily offended or would neither provide useful feedback, or contribute anything worthwhile to the conversation. So, if you read, read at your own risk, and understand, that these are opinions, and if you don't like it, then just ignore it. Just another piece of wisdom.
The agenda, covering responsibility, then accountability and discipline. These are three topics that can easily all interoperate. Now these are also not the three, or the only topics, or the be all end all topics, but some things we need to cover. One lesson at a time, slow down, and absorb what is told, with a grain of salt. A tenant of wisdom. In some points, I may get a little heated, so bear with me.
If you observe, and possibly ask an elderly fellow, you will notice that a sense of responsibility has declined over the generations. Now this isn't just an exponential fall, but a slight, barely noticeable decline. You have to focus to see it. A lot of things we see today are due to a lack of personal responsibility. For instance, shootings, if this person was responsible, they would have gone to firearm safety courses, and learned how to safely operate a firearm and learn its nature. This is just of course the most recent example. One that I have noticed first hand, and felt is children's lack of respect. Respect, a whole different topic, save for another day. With personal responsibility, one must realize that, if you are willingly trying to have children, are stable in the world today? Can you support yourself, and the child, and also be there to mentor and nurture the child until they are ready to venture out on their own? If you take a serious step back, and look at your financial situation, personal habits, and life style, would that be an example for a child to be raised? I have noticed that a lot of people, for one example, have a child, don't wish to entertain them, so they put the child in front of a TV, or a computer, and let the child fend for themselves. Curiosity will take over, so no matter how innocent your intentions are, the child will soon channel surf, find those questionable shows for their age and then see that. Seeing that, they will accept it as normal, and thus, behave irresponsibly. Same goes for computers, and there are so many more dark corner of the Internet that would put fear into the eyes of most responsible people. This also has the same effect as channel surfing and watching questionable shows. As a parent it is your responsibility to care for your child. This doesn't mean give them everything they want, or make them completely happy all the time. As much as we want them to be happy and not have to suffer through miserable things, there comes a time to care for that child and give them what they need versus what they want. When a child acts up, you discipline. Discipline in accordance to the severity of the transgression. Now, This is a point to cover, don't just go haul off and wonk your child in the head or the body for the hell of it. If you do, you have issues, and shouldn't have your child any ways. If a child breaks something, or misbehaves severely, that calls for a spanking. If your child is not playing nice with others or is unable to share, for example, then you don't have to spank them, you would put them in time out. You might say, "ooh that's barbaric!", but I'll tell you this, it made me not do bad things, and it made other kids I know not do bad things. This new age bull shit of count to three doesn't work if you don't put the fear of God in the child. You don't have to beat your child in public either. If you make a threat or promise to spank, you keep it. If you don't, you appear weak, and show that promises are nothing to worry about. Its basically the same concept as a dog, but a child can communicate what they are feeling easier than your furbaby. Again, some might say, "My child is not an animal!" Well, for those of you who say that, what the hell do you think a human being is? We're freaking animals, and animals learn through pain. Do you run off and touch the red hot iron on the stove because you can? No, you know not to because it hurts. Thus you don't do it again. Now, it might take a couple times, but you'll get the hang of pain. How to apply this to raising your child, it takes time, and patience. If you don't have the patience to do that, then again, don't make babies. As your child grows, they'll remember certain things and thus, be more well behaved. NOW, if you are constantly angry, always being negative, then your child will resent you. Do as necessary, and no more. They will see the ways eventually, and not hate you. They will hate you if you berate them and make them feel like shit.
This ties into accountability because if you have a child you are accountable for them at all times. If you are unable to be accountable for anything, again, don't bother with children. If you maintain accountability, you are showing responsibility, and the ability to keep promises, and thus setting the example for your kid. These are not always easy tasks, and will sap you of energy, and that's why kids seem to take so much energy. Again, just don't if you can't. If you instil discipline into your child, then at school, they will be more behaved, and learn more, and thus, be smarter, more productive, and cared for. Teachers noticed this a long time ago, and tried to take matters into their hands. Then the irresponsible, unaccountable adults with children, who never disciplined their kids at home because it was "barbaric" come in and make a big fucking stink and now teachers can't defend or teach their students. This gets them walked over and then, grades, graduation rates and such drop. This is where my experience has come into play. Being that I have relatives who are teachers, I see the irresponsibility and indiscipline that these kids have. One of my family members was subject to this, and mind you that this person is a preschool teacher. They can no longer grab the kids by their shirt collar, or ear, or yell at them. They can only count to three, and then put them in timeout, that is if the teacher can catch them. The example goes, this 4 year old kid was chasing another similarly aged kid with a toy, hitting him in the head. The kid getting hit ran away, and the teacher said to stop that. The kid persisted and the teacher said it again, and told the child they were going to be put in timeout. Again, the third time, the teacher said this, and the kid hitting the other, looked at the teacher and said, "I heard you the first time." Now, if your jaw isn't hitting the ground, you're either thinking about how to take care of this problem, or you're one of those irresponsible parents, and again, shouldn't have kids. Because people are lazy, and unable to be accountable, these children are a mess, and will continue to terrass the school. Sure, you could say that they'll grow out of it or mature. Have you looked at kids these days? I have, even from when I was in school. They feel obligated, gimme gimme, and I don't want to, or don't have to.
I guess I have covered discipline for the most part. Parents need to have the discipline to take care of a child and continue one. I guess I could define the word discipline. When I say the word, what do you think of? Order, robotic, "the system"? It means not only orderly, and well behaved, but the ability to hold yourself accountable and be responsible. You could view it as a tree of sorts.
Discipline
|
|-Responsibility
| |
| |-The ability to accept ones decisions and actions
|
|-Accountability
| |
| |-The measure of which you hold yourself to something
To close, I did have a lot more rants to spew, but those are for another post. For now, ponder, and learn the above words. They don't need to be in a sentence or book, just the words and thought over. Remember, wisdom and knowledge are two separate things, and must work together to get the desired goal. Until next time, remember to discipline not only your child, but yourself.
This is to disuade those who would be easily offended or would neither provide useful feedback, or contribute anything worthwhile to the conversation. So, if you read, read at your own risk, and understand, that these are opinions, and if you don't like it, then just ignore it. Just another piece of wisdom.
The agenda, covering responsibility, then accountability and discipline. These are three topics that can easily all interoperate. Now these are also not the three, or the only topics, or the be all end all topics, but some things we need to cover. One lesson at a time, slow down, and absorb what is told, with a grain of salt. A tenant of wisdom. In some points, I may get a little heated, so bear with me.
If you observe, and possibly ask an elderly fellow, you will notice that a sense of responsibility has declined over the generations. Now this isn't just an exponential fall, but a slight, barely noticeable decline. You have to focus to see it. A lot of things we see today are due to a lack of personal responsibility. For instance, shootings, if this person was responsible, they would have gone to firearm safety courses, and learned how to safely operate a firearm and learn its nature. This is just of course the most recent example. One that I have noticed first hand, and felt is children's lack of respect. Respect, a whole different topic, save for another day. With personal responsibility, one must realize that, if you are willingly trying to have children, are stable in the world today? Can you support yourself, and the child, and also be there to mentor and nurture the child until they are ready to venture out on their own? If you take a serious step back, and look at your financial situation, personal habits, and life style, would that be an example for a child to be raised? I have noticed that a lot of people, for one example, have a child, don't wish to entertain them, so they put the child in front of a TV, or a computer, and let the child fend for themselves. Curiosity will take over, so no matter how innocent your intentions are, the child will soon channel surf, find those questionable shows for their age and then see that. Seeing that, they will accept it as normal, and thus, behave irresponsibly. Same goes for computers, and there are so many more dark corner of the Internet that would put fear into the eyes of most responsible people. This also has the same effect as channel surfing and watching questionable shows. As a parent it is your responsibility to care for your child. This doesn't mean give them everything they want, or make them completely happy all the time. As much as we want them to be happy and not have to suffer through miserable things, there comes a time to care for that child and give them what they need versus what they want. When a child acts up, you discipline. Discipline in accordance to the severity of the transgression. Now, This is a point to cover, don't just go haul off and wonk your child in the head or the body for the hell of it. If you do, you have issues, and shouldn't have your child any ways. If a child breaks something, or misbehaves severely, that calls for a spanking. If your child is not playing nice with others or is unable to share, for example, then you don't have to spank them, you would put them in time out. You might say, "ooh that's barbaric!", but I'll tell you this, it made me not do bad things, and it made other kids I know not do bad things. This new age bull shit of count to three doesn't work if you don't put the fear of God in the child. You don't have to beat your child in public either. If you make a threat or promise to spank, you keep it. If you don't, you appear weak, and show that promises are nothing to worry about. Its basically the same concept as a dog, but a child can communicate what they are feeling easier than your furbaby. Again, some might say, "My child is not an animal!" Well, for those of you who say that, what the hell do you think a human being is? We're freaking animals, and animals learn through pain. Do you run off and touch the red hot iron on the stove because you can? No, you know not to because it hurts. Thus you don't do it again. Now, it might take a couple times, but you'll get the hang of pain. How to apply this to raising your child, it takes time, and patience. If you don't have the patience to do that, then again, don't make babies. As your child grows, they'll remember certain things and thus, be more well behaved. NOW, if you are constantly angry, always being negative, then your child will resent you. Do as necessary, and no more. They will see the ways eventually, and not hate you. They will hate you if you berate them and make them feel like shit.
This ties into accountability because if you have a child you are accountable for them at all times. If you are unable to be accountable for anything, again, don't bother with children. If you maintain accountability, you are showing responsibility, and the ability to keep promises, and thus setting the example for your kid. These are not always easy tasks, and will sap you of energy, and that's why kids seem to take so much energy. Again, just don't if you can't. If you instil discipline into your child, then at school, they will be more behaved, and learn more, and thus, be smarter, more productive, and cared for. Teachers noticed this a long time ago, and tried to take matters into their hands. Then the irresponsible, unaccountable adults with children, who never disciplined their kids at home because it was "barbaric" come in and make a big fucking stink and now teachers can't defend or teach their students. This gets them walked over and then, grades, graduation rates and such drop. This is where my experience has come into play. Being that I have relatives who are teachers, I see the irresponsibility and indiscipline that these kids have. One of my family members was subject to this, and mind you that this person is a preschool teacher. They can no longer grab the kids by their shirt collar, or ear, or yell at them. They can only count to three, and then put them in timeout, that is if the teacher can catch them. The example goes, this 4 year old kid was chasing another similarly aged kid with a toy, hitting him in the head. The kid getting hit ran away, and the teacher said to stop that. The kid persisted and the teacher said it again, and told the child they were going to be put in timeout. Again, the third time, the teacher said this, and the kid hitting the other, looked at the teacher and said, "I heard you the first time." Now, if your jaw isn't hitting the ground, you're either thinking about how to take care of this problem, or you're one of those irresponsible parents, and again, shouldn't have kids. Because people are lazy, and unable to be accountable, these children are a mess, and will continue to terrass the school. Sure, you could say that they'll grow out of it or mature. Have you looked at kids these days? I have, even from when I was in school. They feel obligated, gimme gimme, and I don't want to, or don't have to.
I guess I have covered discipline for the most part. Parents need to have the discipline to take care of a child and continue one. I guess I could define the word discipline. When I say the word, what do you think of? Order, robotic, "the system"? It means not only orderly, and well behaved, but the ability to hold yourself accountable and be responsible. You could view it as a tree of sorts.
Discipline
|
|-Responsibility
| |
| |-The ability to accept ones decisions and actions
|
|-Accountability
| |
| |-The measure of which you hold yourself to something
To close, I did have a lot more rants to spew, but those are for another post. For now, ponder, and learn the above words. They don't need to be in a sentence or book, just the words and thought over. Remember, wisdom and knowledge are two separate things, and must work together to get the desired goal. Until next time, remember to discipline not only your child, but yourself.
2013-01-20
School starts tomorrow for me.
Tomorrow, my school semester starts!! First two classes with University of Phoenix doing an AS with IT. & Networking. Just gotta keep up with the classes, and i'll have my degree soon! blammo! Thanks for the support.
2013-01-03
My health and other things
Lately, I have been feeling...odd.
When I got home from the service, I was feeling restless, but unmotivated to do anything. Then dreams began to take place, where I was either doing something bad to someone, or having something bad done to me. Then I found if I stay up late, I do not dream. Then my eyes started twitching. Now, my hands are shaking, ears and mouth twitch, and it just randomly happens.
I have tried meditating at least twice, but each time my mind would not calm down. I do believe that my mind is unwinding and is trying to just...relieve itself I guess. After doing so much for 6 years, then bam, nothing. My body and mind definitely feel it. Once my finances and work schedule get on track, I will look for a gym, and continue the physical therapy I was doing myself. Hopefully, things will come around soon.
On a good note, I did have a job interview, and it went very well. The first interviewer I talked with for about 40min, and the second guy, was straight to the point, but we talked for about 25min. All-in-all, it seemed very good. The HR crew said I should look for a call in a week or so, so we'll see. I need that money coming in.
To end on another good note, I have set my desktop back up, and started on working on getting my music station back up again. Will post more later.
When I got home from the service, I was feeling restless, but unmotivated to do anything. Then dreams began to take place, where I was either doing something bad to someone, or having something bad done to me. Then I found if I stay up late, I do not dream. Then my eyes started twitching. Now, my hands are shaking, ears and mouth twitch, and it just randomly happens.
I have tried meditating at least twice, but each time my mind would not calm down. I do believe that my mind is unwinding and is trying to just...relieve itself I guess. After doing so much for 6 years, then bam, nothing. My body and mind definitely feel it. Once my finances and work schedule get on track, I will look for a gym, and continue the physical therapy I was doing myself. Hopefully, things will come around soon.
On a good note, I did have a job interview, and it went very well. The first interviewer I talked with for about 40min, and the second guy, was straight to the point, but we talked for about 25min. All-in-all, it seemed very good. The HR crew said I should look for a call in a week or so, so we'll see. I need that money coming in.
To end on another good note, I have set my desktop back up, and started on working on getting my music station back up again. Will post more later.
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